It just doesn’t feel right! 

“It doesn’t feel right.

Waking up with my room drowning in sunlight, all this heat and yet this pain makes it feel like I’m gonna get a frostbite. Sitting down for breakfast, and suddenly I have lost my appetite. Getting ready for college, I just keep telling myself it’s gonna be alright.

The sunlight shined bright and, my day had begun, but I couldn’t help but feel some fright. I thought maybe today I will see some happy sights, and yet as I enter the building, I took my right and there’s a fistfight. It just doesn’t feel right. The fact that I go back home with no one to wish a good night. The fact that there’s no one to talk to, just my paper and pen to write. All I do during the day is think of what I’m gonna do at night, all I do at night is lay on bed under the moonlight, with a fire in my heart starting to ignite, I hold on to my sanity so tight. next thing I know, my inner monster comes out without an invite, and I put a knife against my wrist while the voices in my mind echo trying to brighten my inner light by telling me it’s gonna be ‘alright’. My wrists are bleeding and the pain finally starts to bite. They lied. It’s never gonna be alright.

I hide between the bedsheets under the dim starlight. The clock hits midnight and my sanity’s out  of sight. It just doesn’t feel right.”

Why wait? 

There will always be another day, to say our “I love you’s”,

and certainly there’s another chance to say our “Anything I can do’s!”
But, just in case I might be wrong, and today is all I get,

I would like to say how much I love you, and I hope we never forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone, 

young or old alike, 

and today may be the last chance you get 

to hold your loved one tight.
So, if you’re waiting for tomorrow, why not do it today?

For, if tomorrow never comes, you’ll surely regret the day…
That you didn’t take that extra time for a smile,a hug, or a kiss,

and you were too busy to grant someone, 

what turned out to be their one last wish.
So hold your loved ones close today, and whisper in their ear,

that you love them very much and you’ll always hold them dear.
Take time to say ” I’m sorry,” “Please forgive me,” “thank you,” or “it’s okay”.

And if tomorrow never comes, you’ll have no regrets about today…

If only I knew.. 

If I knew it would be the last time I’d see you fall  asleep,

I would tuck you in more tightly and “pray the Lord, your soul to keep”.
If I knew it would be the last time I’d see you walk out the door,

I would give you a hug and kiss you, and call you back for more..
If I knew it would be the last time I’d hear your voice lifted up in praise,

I would videotape each action and word, so I could play them back day after day..
If I knew it would be the last time I could spare an extra minute or so

to stop and say “I love you”, instead of you assuming you would know I do..
If I knew it would be the last time I would be there to share your day,

I’m sure you’ll  have so many more, so I can let just this one slip away.
For surely there’s always tomorrow to make up for an oversight,

and we always get a second chance to make everything right.